17 Monday Apr 2023
Posted in Citizenship, Climate Change, Community, Coronavirus, Death, Economics, Family, Health, Human Extinction, Musings
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By the time we realized the truth, it was too late to do anything.
Humans never were good at understanding our limits.
Our hubris was our demise.
10 Monday Apr 2023
What an amazing time we had at a jam packed event for AICHO -as stated in their event notice:
Dabinoo’Igan is empowering the voices that are often silenced due to Domestic Violence. “One Community, Many Voices, Stop the Silence” is an opportunity for our community to come together for the victims who are silenced. Enjoy musical performances by Erik Koskinen and Band, Anishinaabeg national music award winners Annie Humphrey and Keith Secola along with the Miziiwekaamikiinang Drum Group on April 6, 2023
AICHO is expanding our culturally responsive domestic violence shelter Dabinoo’Igan to help more victims of domestic and sexual violence in our community. …in partnership with the Ordean Foundation. All monies raised will go toward the Dabinoo’Igan Shelter expansion.
In the fiscal year 2021, the Dabinoo’Igan Shelter provided 490 unique individuals with shelter services, accommodated 2,509 bed stays, and answered over 577 crisis calls. During the same year, Dabinoo’Igan had just under 200 requests for services that were unmet due to capacity issues.
Victims of violence should never have to face these barriers when seeking safety and help.
Help us help our community in need. Dabinoo’Igan is Anishinaabemowin for “a place where you are safe, comforted and sheltered”. More about musicians, tickets, fundraiser: : https://www.aicho.org/funddvshelter
Top event sponsors: Ordean Foundation, Krenzen Auto, McKnight Foundation, First Nations Development Institute, Maurices, St. Louis County Attorney’s Office, Essentia Health, Ivy Vainio + Friends, Bois Forte Band of Chippewa, Arrowhead Regional Arts Council, National Bank of Commerce, RBC Wealth Management-Duluth, and RSM US LLP. #AICHOFundDVShelter
from the event info
This event was incredible. Terrific organizing. Amazing performances. Annie is always powerful – EVERY time I’ve seen her – and the middle guys were stars with a big booming sound – really rocked it – then Keith came out and blew our minds.🤯 Great to see David Huckfelt. 🫶
Ivy and team did a fantastic job. The Ordean guy was terrific. Really could see the coherence in the group. Good to see some friends there to support the fundraiser and we really enjoyed the after party! 😍
More time with friends all the way home, including visiting our babies!! 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
So many good friends and family. 💖
Working this week on getting our place organized again for kitten arrival. After swearing I wouldn’t… ever again… 😵💫 Only excuse… Overwhelming cuteness.😻😻 And they say two is easier…🧐
Deep conversations and time in the woods all made for a terrific welcome of spring. 🌱 🌺
So many good friends and family. 💖 My life keeps getting better and better.
26 Monday Dec 2022
Posted in Being Yourself, Family, Insanity, Musings
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complex, industrial, Listening, Men, military, Poetry, Power, prison, Relationship, Women
“I didn’t listen again, did I? I’m sorry.”
Fuck
I always think it’s gonna be different
And here we are again
Fuck fuck fuck is this frustrating
Just like the rest of the world
A microcosm of the system writ large
Yet just an everyday occurrence
Here’s what you get little lady!
That’s how it is.
Sorry it’s not to your liking.
Carry on!
Don’t bother saying anything about it because you can’t undo what’s been done
This is just how it is.
This is just how it always has been.
This is just what you get.
Deal with it
On your own
In my head I swirl with possibilities
Responses unsaid as they’ve been given before to no avail
Ways I could have made it different
Fantasies of a future that might have been
Reasons its my fault
Always reasons its my fault
Yet its never my fault
It is just the way it is
I could have said something earlier
[Like in the past when it didn’t work]
I could have said STOP
[By the time I did it was too late]
I could ask for resolution
[I’m far too triggered for that now]
Instead I spiral in the silence
I’m tired of feeling powerless
I’m tired of going through this same thing again
I’m tired of it not being the way I want it
I’m tired of not getting what I want as I watch you get the things you need
I’m tired of my perspective not being a concern
I’m tired of my feelings being ignored
I’m tired of my wishes not even being a part of the plan
I’m tired of being invisible
Immaterial
Irrelevant
I’m mad at myself
I don’t want to cry about this
Fuck!!!!!!!!
I wasn’t going cry about this
Not ever again
But here I am
crying
Fucking great
When will I be able to go through this without crying
When will I be able to not be affected by this
When will I be able to simply laugh at the absurd consistencies of this life
Let alone the horrific inconsistencies
Why is it ok
Why do we let it happen
And when it happens why do we ignore it
Why don’t we even talk about it
We just go on as of nothing has happened
As if no harms were incurred
As if this is an event that didn’t ever exist
Because if it did
And someone was hurt
Shouldn’t we talk about it
Wouldn’t that at least let me know someone cares
Someone else sees that it’s not how things should be
Someone else sees that we need a change
Someone else wants to help
Someone else doesn’t ever want me to hurt like this again
It’s not just me
Being crazy
When a little girl is raped do we think it more horrible than rape of an older woman
Why are we so horrified for the little girl
Why are we often dismissive of the woman
Or worse yet blame her for her fate
Do we sometimes blame the little girl
She shouldn’t have been so pretty
Such a distraction an attraction
She should have said NO
One more time
Then maybe
She could
Hold on
To her
Chastity
and her
dignity
her
self
When will we get a voice
When will things be done aligned to common goals
When will power heed the voices of innocence
When might we be able to say No
And be heard
And heeded
For good
When might I not feel like I’m so tired of this that an end might be better
When might I be able to simply not feel all the history of my past
In these times when I am again
Unheeded
Mother Earth alone comforts my pain
She and I together
Will continue
Our paths
Similar
Sad
Until all awaken
Until we are legion
The source of this poem is so sadly everyday. Yet it helps me better understand the ways I carry pain, how my past is so often jumping into my present, and how easily doubts can derail. Simply writing and reading this work to a friend has opened me to freedom from some of the trauma. I am hopeful it helps you similarly.
14 Monday Nov 2022
Today’s blog is a guest blog.
I just cannot write about this yet as I have not had time to process.
So Dan gives the update from The HARN today.
Send him some love, as this isn’t easy for him either.
~ Jami
These photos of Gaazhii were taken on the final day of Fall up here, November 1st 2022. The others a few days later, at the time of the Full Moon.
Gaazhii went out @ Noon and returned 11 minutes later to show off his new toy (a big fluffy Mouse) that seemed to be broken. He tossed it up in the air several times, I informed him he should not eat that on the stoop, he then tossed it onto the leaves and proceeded to begin his lunch. Aunt Annie always says “you gotta eat what you kill“.
I looked away, as I cannot handle this part, I looked back just in time to see the tail get sucked in!
Next was a run to the Pond where he lay in the warm Sunshine before traipsing down the path stalking Chickadees, as I shouted “Leave The Birdies Alone”. He disappeared into the Pines just past the birdhouse & headed East towards the swamp.
We spent the next 48 hours yelling his name every time we stepped outside. Finally a neighbor phoned and let us know she had found 2 Black Cats alongside County 2 in past weeks. Our neighbor took Jami to where she had put them in the woods.
Jami first identified a feral cat, we had known about a year, who we called “Gerri” that Gaazhii had been traipsing thru the woods with this Summer. Next she found our Gaazhii curled up like he was taking a nap. She brought them back to The HARN and we dug a hole between the Firepit & the Pond where we often observed the 2 of them frolicking, it’s marked with Stones and Hummingbirds.
He was the Best Cat I ever Knew.”
~ Dan
01 Monday Aug 2022
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Motherhood is a time of love and compassion for a new Life…
A gift to cherish and enjoy each day.
Motherhood is a place to give Comfort…
A cozy place to find the ultimate well-being.
Motherhood is a time to Teach but more importantly to Learn…
A child will always create more understanding than he gains.
Motherhood is an adventure of intricate Mystery.
It is full of paths taken… some then abandoned and new trails blazed.
It has spaces of darkness and hopelessness,
where one knows not how to proceed.
And spaces of unbelievably brilliant light,
where one truly understands.
The Beauty of Life.
The Enormity of Love.
The Joy of Happiness.
The Tranquility of Peace.
13 Monday Sep 2021
Posted in Family, Finding Your Purpose, Human Extinction, Insanity, Musings
A few months ago, on about day 500 of quarantine, an official hippie declared us “Hippies”. It was quite a day, as I’ve long worked to be a hippie.
Early on in C0VlD days, on a phone call to a sister, bitching about how I felt about all of the bullshit going on with Line 3… and living in rural Minnesota and being ignored… and the white supremacy idiocy… and all of that. My Indigenous Sister laughed and said, “Oohhhh, yeah, now you know what it’s like to be Native!”
It was bittersweet, and though I’ll never really know what it’s truly like to be Native, I’m learning more every day. The up side is it drives me to continue to bring a new world… one where the ways of the Anishinaabeg are again revered and practiced more widely.
I was texting my son last week, as his company Deck Nine Games prepared to launch their newest offering, “Life Is Strange: True Colors“. I’m really proud of what he’s done and I think this game has a timeliness to it that’s almost magical.
A few days ago, he called to let us know how it was going… to give us an update on how he’s managing through the launch. And things were going pretty good.
Critically, True Colors’ story is well-rounded, with a satisfying and definitive ending for both its central mystery and for Alex’s personal journey (and as all good thrillers should offer, there is a resolution you can deduce for yourself if you are paying enough attention). It’s not a failing to me that True Colors tells a lean story which prioritises quality over quantity, feelings over finer details, and a sense the series, like Alex, has come back to its roots after a period of absence and change.
Whereas Life is Strange 2 acted to disrupt the original’s formula and engage in heavier themes, True Colors is a safer riff on Dontnod’s debut, but one whose quality allows it to stand on its own without feeling too much like a cover band. Deck Nine is a supremely talented studio, True Colors makes clear, and more than worthy of continuing the Life is Strange franchise.”
Life is Strange: True Colors review – Eurogamer (my emphasis)
While I spoke with my son I shared about how I’m feeling right now, just pretty overwhelmed with being steamrolled by the pipeline project, aided and abetted by the Walz administration – and their lack of conscious, courage, compassion, cognizance, creativity, and common sense.
I spoke about how it feels hard to imagine that there’s any meaning in doing anything at all except just holing up in the woods and playing video games all day long… plugging into the electrons and pretending that the outside world doesn’t exist as it does. Feeling hopeless about how much time there is left for humanity. Feeling frustrated at the lack of any lack of any action – by the powers that be – that feels geared to serving the people.
I told him that I often think of how he shared with us, midway through our now 560-day quarantine, about the fact that he’s known most of his life that his generation would be the throwaway generation… that they would get nothing. I told him how horrible I felt about my inability to do anything about that.
His response?
“Welcome to being a Millennial.”
24 Wednesday Mar 2021
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#StopLine3, Birthday, Blessing, Friends of the Headwaters, Naabek, Naabek Liberty, Ojibwemowin, World Water Day
Well, I missed my regular Monday blog post day by a couple… as it’s been a whirlwind of a week! [This is only the second miss as I recall… the first was planned, for a Tommy visit, in the early days of blogging… and I want to keep it to a minimum, so I’m counting this as an approved Birthday Delay in posting!!]
So many blessings… and World Water Day coinciding with my birthday! Surprising Serendipity!!
And the fun continues… so thrilled to get a fun shout out from Smart Mark Agee of The Evening Skews (with Trae Crowder). [Love those guys.]
And thrilled to hear what seems like some judges who had done their homework on the Line 3 Challenges in the MN Court of Appeals. [The key is reading the dissent from PUC Commissioner Matt Scheurger, as he laid it out pretty succinctly (Pages D1-11). Here’s a lovely video from seekjoy on the last big public hearing at the PUC… with love going to Commissioner Matt (2:20 of the 2-2:30 coverage marking his courage)] The submitted briefs appear to have been well read as good questions ensued indicating Enbridge had perhaps NOT provided a Demand forecast for their project (as required by law)… and instead gave only a fantasy SUPPLY forecast for the PUC to consider. Sure hoping we see a reversal of the PUC’s Line 3 Certificate of Need order – as it was given capriciously and without proper consideration of Minnesota law. (IMHO)
Hoping you all have a blessed year as well.
Chi-Miigwech Miinawaa, Indinawemaa Odinawemaaganan!
{I’m learning… and believe this translates to… Big Thanks, again, to All my Relatives!
Chi-Miigwech to Naabek who is teaching me.
You can join us… every Wednesday… That’s TONIGHT! 7PM Passcode: 054633
Bring your emikwaanensan! :D}
23 Monday Nov 2020
Posted in Coronavirus, Dreams Coming True, Family, Happiness in Life, Insanity
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COVID-19, Gaazhigens, Good, Governor Tim Walz, Gratitude, Kitten, Minnesota PUC, MPCA, Walz
Well, I’ve been focusing in recent blogs on the failings of Minnesota government (from the PUC – yeah, them – to the MEQB to the MPCA to the Governor) to protect not only the environment, but citizens as well. This week I thought a HARN update would be good as many use this time of year to give thanks.
Though it’s a hard time to be thankful as we watch cases and dead continue to pile up this week along the proposed Line 3 corridor, more and more voices are speaking on the subject, and that gives me gratitude.
Minnesotans are calling the Governor (1-800-657-3717), the Attorney General (1-800-657-3787), and now the Minnesota Department of Health (1-800-657-3504) regarding the atrocity of continuing to support an unnecessary pipeline project during a pandemic. Flooding northern Minnesota – and its fragile health care resources – with thousands of pipeliners from states like Texas and North Dakota can only be described as INSANE, when you are, at the SAME FUCKING TIME, dialing back the citizens of said region as Governor Walz is doing. How that is not negligent homicide is beyond me.
Governor Walz noted in Executive Order 20-99:
Our nearest neighbors — North Dakota, South Dakota, Iowa, and Wisconsin— are experiencing some of the highest nationwide per capita increases in COVID-19 cases, and 48 states are now in the Task Force “Red Zone” for new COVID-19 cases. It is simply not a good time for out-of-state travel that is anything short of essential, so this Order clarifies my recommendation that Minnesotans refrain from unnecessary out-of-state travel for the next four weeks and self-quarantine upon their return if they do decide to travel.”
We have to STAY HOME but it’s OK for…
thousands of pipeliners from these “hot” states to come HERE…
for an UNESSENTIAL TAR SANDS PIPELINE? WTF?
No amount of industry protocols can protect if we’re seeing nurses and doctors, in the most critically sanitized workplaces, falling to this illness. Community spread is a real thing and, with limited enforcement or willingness in this region to wear a mask [even among those who should know better (FFS)], we are all at high risk.
So I spent the last week writing about this, calling folks myself, praying at the river, and seeing what I can do to help mitigate the dangers that COVID-19 and Enbridge’s Tar Sands Pipeline threaten. I got confirmation today of one LTE that WILL be printing!!! So… not for naught I guess.
And… we got a KITTEN!!!
This is Gaazhagens (Ojibwemowin for Cat), Gaazh (or Gaazhii) for short!
He’s VERY HAPPY today as a package arrived from my mom (Thanks, Mom!!) with lots of goodies. So far we opened one that he spent LOTS of time on… until he was exhausted! I replaced the crazy red flashy ball with a golf ball for my own sanity but late night disco ball will come out tonight! (Thanks, Dad! I wondered what the box of golfballs would be good for when I cleaned up the HARN in preparation for Gaazh… now I know! I have no doubt he will be able to pull it from the groove in no time! We’ll need replacements.)
The biggest issue is his eating. Gaazh is a rescue cat [Thanks, Ralph & Paulette Friday!] and he eats like everything MUST BE KILLED and INHALED. He is learning to slow down. Even chewing sometimes!
The decision to bring in a new roomie was predicated on cleaning and rearranging the entire house.
This was cathardic, calorie-burning, and, in the end, energizing! It’s so nice to have everything organized again. And dusted! Chests have been swept clear of underlying dustbunnies, the living/craft room is now one giant space instead of divided (…may that bring good unifying energy for all!), and Gaazh has his own private bathroom space! I am loving the little hand vac we picked up at a sale somewhere for $3 as it helps keep the minimal litter in front of the box swept up – or was that gifted to us by someone else who spent the $3? Who knows… I’m even doing dishes more than once a week now as we keep things organized… for as long as possible!
We don’t use many dishes here… though Gaazh has made clear that dishes on the counter are his… once everyone goes to bed!! Dan tried leaving out leftovers the first night and someone left little tongue prints in the dish after flipping back the towel over it. Three times! 😀
GG is so little but he sure can tear through – pushing rugs and such this way and that – as he speeds through the HARN. And I’m sure he’ll be a big cat before we know it but for today, we’re enjoying how tiny and fun he is. And preparing him to be a lap kitty as much as we can. Every body brings good warmth to the HARN.
Wishing you all good warmth in this season of thanks.
And giving thanks for a good year… regardless of all that we’ve been through. There is good in every day. And every thing. And every one.
Blessed be.
16 Monday Nov 2020
Before it’s 2 late. I don’t want to be the last 1 alive. Sorry, couldn’t help continue the countdown, which is what it feels like here every day.
How many days until we see massive health care breakdown? We’re losing a Minnesotan an hour and then some to Covid. Yet Governor Walz STILL will not speak about delaying the project.
Even on Almanac, he talked COVID, but not that pipeline project. But you know who did? Winona LaDuke. And she had a lot of good things to say.
Walz said on Friday the 13th’s Almanac that it will be 3 weeks until we hit 300K dead in the US. I’m guessing he might be underestimating that – what with exponential growth. Yet he STILL refuses to DELAY Line 3.
It’s not hard, you know. Just clarifying Executive Order 20-20, which was put into place way back in March – the early days of the pandemic – and accurately NOT MENTIONING Petroleum Pipeline Construction as part of the Essential Worker staff.
Governor Walz could add some simple clarification verbiage like this:
Whereas, Northern Minnesota has minimal and rudimentary Health Care facilities and trained COVID-19 care professionals,
Whereas, tar sands as a commodity has a current 400,000 barrel/day excess of pipeline capacity for current demand making a new tar sands pipeline that would carry only 370,000 bpd unnecessary at this time, and
Whereas, an influx of 3600 out-of-area pipeline construction workers would create an undue risk for COVID-19 community spread with their need for housing, food, and entertainment off the work-site, and
Whereas, Enbridge has been clear in their calls with local officials that they can only enforce social distancing rules on their own worksites, not offsite or in community, where COVID-19 is likely to be spread to local populations and worker families, and
Whereas, the health and care of the People of Minnesota is my paramount concern and responsibility, and
Whereas, Minnesota is currently seeing an exponential rise in COVID-19 cases and deaths which is becoming difficult to even monitor, let alone treat,
Now, therefore, as Governor, I declare that a postponement of the Line 3 project until the pandemic can be brought under control, is necessary and prudent.”
Here’s the verbiage that could help us the DELAY Line 3 project to save lives in Minnesota.
But, I’m not holding my breath… though I am staying home. And masking up if I do venture anywhere.
Minnesota Public Broadcasting’s Almanac program (sponsored by Enbridge) hosted Governor Walz (7:30-17:58) and Winona LaDuke (33:30-40:09; including the Enbridge disclaimer… and Winona snagging an extra 10 seconds of messaging!!), though only ONE of them had the courage to speak of the risks the Line 3 project brings to Minnesota.
In addition to some interested political maneuvers by Republicans, they’ve appointed a Democrat as the Senate Leader (this is how corrupted Dems are to Republican corporate support here in MN?).
What did Governor Walz have to say?
THEN WHY WILL YOU NOT DELAY THIS TAR SAND PIPELINE PROJECT? THAT alone could save HUNDREDS or THOUSANDS of lives in the long run. Sadly, you seem NOT to have the courage to do it. Perhaps you are unwilling to risk political capital to save Northern Minnesota lives? Is is just cause we’re a bunch of rocks and cows up here? And a few Indians we haven’t yet managed to slaughter off with our white supremacy colonizing culture? Yes, this IS how FUCKING PISSED I am about your diffidence.
You know, Tim, bringing thousands of out-of-area workers into MN – from ND, OK, TX, WI – all hot spots – makes it certain that you’ll definitely be bringing increased risk to rural MN where we do NOT HAVE THE HOSPITAL and HEALTH CARE WORKERS to support this influx of population. Especially not when we’re already facing shortages on housing – which will only be exacerbated by Enbridge workers coming in with bigger paychecks than many have here and gobbling up housing? How many Minnesotans will freeze to death in their vehicles as Enbridge workers are housed in places they might have otherwise stayed?
11:19 – Walz: “…if this saved one Minnesotan’s life, I’ll make those hard decisions” – well I call BS. You could ANY MOMENT say that Minnesota is going to PAUSE 4 PANDEMIC on an UNNECESSARY pipeline project. And you have YET to do so. And another 31 dead Sunday in Minnesota. We only had 12 new dead today, which is typical for Mondays, typically our lowest day of the week for reporting. [Last Sunday, Monday, Tuesday was 31, 19, 23… then 56 on 11/11, if that portends anything.]
Walz gets the updates at 9PM for the day – wish I could have that data then… I get the massaged 7-day rolling average… that disguises the exponentiality of these growing numbers.
Duluth Mayor, Emily Larson, in St. Louis County, was asked about emergency rotation on the police department due to rolling outages of personnel. The Mayor noted:
Next up was Dr. Rahul Koranne (head of MN Hospital Assn) on staffing. We have beds… but concern is number of professionals getting exposed to the virus. (26:30) A spot check Wednesday showed over 6000 heroes out of service in our hospitals. Everyone is looking for same agency nurses so no relief is to be found outside the state. Control of spread is key. A discussion on rationing of care (27:42) found Dr. Koranne saying, “A patient, a Minnesotan that needs a hospital care is getting it.” He also noted that 1 in 4 ICU beds is COVID. 16% of medical surgical has COVID. Heart attacks, strokes, cancers still being managed. [As I consider exponential growth, I foresee a real ripping out of the rug any moment. Did you see Texas is starting with the refrigerated trailers for the dead? Lucky it’s cold in Minnesota?] “Trying to coordinate across the state. … Some patients have to be transported great distances and that’s what a pandemic will do.” I am not feeling confident. Are you?
Even the funny part of Almanac wasn’t funny to me. Sheletta Brundidge did her best and, if it weren’t for the way adults CONTINUE to IGNORE the CLIMATE CRISIS as if we can just keep going on with life as we’ve known it… I might have laughed. But I couldn’t… as she spoke about “kids day” and assumed her child would ask for less “chores, ice creams instead of veggies, and unlimited piggy back rides.” I’m guessing she’d rather have you save the planet’s ability to support human life.
Then we go to Winona. And she talks some REAL TRUTH.
The fact is that we’ve got the poorest counties and Enbridge is slathering out a hundred million dollars worth of money, and you know they should have slathered that out a long time ago cause they got six pipelines across the north and all kinds of leaks. The single largest leak was actually in Grand Rapids.
So, you know, there’s some people that are… that are up there trying to get some money because it’s a really difficult time in the north. But, you know what? It’s kinda like getting a job in the gas chamber. That’s a great job to have but it’s really not the job you wanna have over the long term. And that’s what this pipeline is like. It’s like… the ecological equivalent to Auswitz. That’s what this pipeline is.”
Winona LaDuke 11-13-2020 Almanac (39:10)
Winona closes noting that she wants water, wild rice, and a future without conflict in it. Enbridge’s pipeline is just gonna bring conflict to our state.
If you agree with any of these points made by Winona, perhaps you can voice them to Almanac at 651-229-1430?
Meanwhile, if you want more TV from today, this is perhaps the most well-done non-violent direct action I have ever seen for Climate Justice. Londoners apparently have an abundance of creativity as they anticipate Extinction. So many good messages in this, my nominee for Best NonViolent Direct Action 2020 – Black Humor category, aka The Real Truth.
Good luck, Everybody. Especially if you live in a community where government leaders are aligned with the oil interests more than they are their human constituents. [Is that all of us?]
Good luck, especially to Northern Minnesota as you are inundated with unnecessary pipeline construction workers. Stay inside, because Enbridge (and many local law enforcement officers up here, best I can tell by the non-enforcement of mask mandates and other concerns) aren’t willing and/or able to control these itinerant workers off the job-site. And a most prayerful wish for all the women and girls along the pipeline corridor, and all the relatives young and old, to be protected.
My best hope is for a Pause4Pandemic on the Line 3 project. The MPCA may say they are “protecting our environment”…
… while sacrificing our health care workers… and really all of us. Approving this pipeline project, on the assumption of Need provided by the PUC – now facing so many court battles, I’m losing count on this project, though most recently regarding Enbridge’s lies during testimony for the project – is truly negligent.
31 Monday Aug 2020
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Remember.
Remember when Jeff killed that coy-wolf?
Imagine what his mate would have done to you… if you’d run into her.
And she realized you… were with him.
Retired at 45 